And Lean Not On Your Own Understanding

Drama: A part of real life that seems to have been planned like a story or play

Let’s face it, we all have drama in our lives, and most of us deal with it on a daily basis. Well, I wonder if most of you ladies remember high school, because it sure feels like a breeding ground for drama! This past year was full of friends having strained relationships and various issues with each other, much of which I tried to stay out of, but to no avail I might add. Once the summer rolled around I was super excited. No more drama, I won’t have to deal with this again until next year! Well life didn’t go the way that I had planned it, (as always) and I was confronted with drama over the summer. THE SUMMER! You can imagine my reaction: This was supposed to be my time of relaxation and fun, I didn’t want to deal with these people!

Have you ever been in a situation where someone was mad at you, and they were blatantly obvious about it, but you had no idea what you had done wrong? This is the position that I found myself in, and I wasn’t quite sure what to do about it. A few weeks ago I received a call from someone who I thought to be my friend, but when this person called they were very rude, said some not so nice things, and then proceeded to hang up on me. Now I’m the type of person where, if you are just outright mean to me I can ignore it, but when you are rude (and don’t use the manners that you were raised with, as my mother would say) it really pushes my buttons. Yes I know I am too young to have buttons! LOL But seriously, I was completely outdone. What had I done wrong? What did I do to deserve that kind of treatment?

Now I’m not a violent person but, at that point, honestly, I wanted to punch a wall. Have you ever had one of those days? If not, I applaud you. So I asked my friends what I should do about it, and they told me that I should pray. Problem is, I was stubborn (big surprise there right?), and I didn’t want to pray. I wanted to continue seething at this person, or if I did forgive them I wanted to do it all by myself. Then I could be the bigger person and feel really good about myself. I wasn’t going to bother God about this, I had it under control. So I sat there for about an hour telling myself “C'mon Tovah, you can do this, forgive, just let it go.” After that hour I was still just as mad, if not more because I had been dwelling on it. I began to think, “Maybe I should ask God for help about this matter?”

As I quieted my mind and began to pray Proverbs 3:5-6 popped into my head. Or should I say God popped it into my head LOL! But in all seriousness He brought these verses to mind, and I am going to share them with you now. Proverbs 3:5-6, 5Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; 6in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. I realized that I was trying to lean on my own understanding, and I needed some serious path straightening right at that moment. God showed me that I really had no right to be angry with that person; I instead needed to respond to them in love.

Once I put everything into God’s hands I felt so relieved, like it just didn’t matter anymore. I can honestly say that I have forgiven that person, and that the drama isn’t bothering me today. And I put much emphasis on TODAY ~Smile~ As I am now entering my senior year, YAY!!!! I know I will not have any spare time to devote to this kind of thing. People will love you, and hate you, and you may not even know why, but God does, and He has you in His hands. I am now trying to be solely focused on the college application process, and not the drama of high school. I will keep you all updated as to how applying is going, and to which college I will be attending!



Peace and Love,
Tovah


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